Asking For It by Lilah Pace
“This is who I am. This is what I want. Now I need a man dangerous enough to give it to me.”
Graduate student Vivienne Charles is afraid of her own desires—ashamed to admit that she fantasizes about being taken by force, by a man who will claim her completely and without mercy. When the magnetic, mysterious Jonah Marks learns her secret, he makes an offer that stuns her: they will remain near-strangers to each other, and meet in secret so that he can fulfill her fantasy.
Their arrangement is twisted. The sex is incredible. And—despite their attempts to stay apart—soon their emotions are bound together as tightly as the rope around Vivienne’s wrists. But the secrets in their pasts threaten to turn their affair even darker…
Reader Advisory: Asking for It deals explicitly with fantasies of non-consensual sex. Readers sensitive to portrayals of non-consensual sex should be advised.
Giveaway – Enter Here
“It’s okay. This is difficult.” He pauses a moment before adding, “Are you scared?”
Deep breath. Honest answer. “Yes and no. I believe you aren’t going to do anything without my permission. But what we’re doing feels a little like jumping off a cliff. I’ve had this fantasy since – since always, but I never thought I’d act it out with a stranger –”
At that moment, a waiter appears by our sofa. Why do bar waiters only show up when you least want them around? Offhandedly Jonah says, “Bring me whatever she’s having.”
I don’t think he’s even looked at my glass. What if I had some ridiculous tropical drink, the kind of thing served in a pineapple with pink straws and paper umbrellas? The thought of someone as serious as Jonah sipping one of those makes me smile. Finally I’m able to relax a little – but not much.
As soon as the waiter hurries off, Jonah turns to me. “What would it take to make you feel safe?”
I like that he asked this. But how do I answer?
Cut to the chase, I remind myself. Jonah’s blunt honesty is the only way to go. “I’d need you to wear condoms. Unless you want to show me your medical records.”
Jonah nods. “I can get those for you. Can you show me test results too?”
It hadn’t even occurred to me that Jonah also might be concerned about that. “Um. Yeah, sure.”
“No rush,” he says. “I don’t mind wearing a condom at first. Makes it last longer.”
My cheeks flush as I envision Jonah inside me, pounding me, going on and on and on without mercy –
Jonah must know what I’m thinking, because he tilts his head as if he’s relishing the effect he has on me. He murmurs, “What else?”
Another sip of wine steadies me enough to answer. “I wouldn’t want you to tie me up. Not the first time, anyway.”
He smiles. “I like that you’re thinking about the future. I’ll have plenty of chances to give you what you want.”
It hadn’t even occurred to me before today that Jonah might have been considering a one-time fling. Now that I think about it, that makes more sense than assuming we’d keep playing out this scenario. But I’ve wanted this too long, too much, to assume one night will be enough to get it out of my system. If Jonah’s the right partner for this fantasy, then we have a chance I don’t intend to waste.
Already I sense that one taste of Jonah Marks won’t be enough.
Vivienne and Jonah have an intense connection on the most intimate of levels. They share similarities in trauma from their childhoods, yet fail to share this with one another as they both keep their private lives out of the equation. The themes and encounters in this novel are dark and should not be read if you’re triggered by intense and explicit sexual encounters. This made me anxious about diving into this story. But Lilah made not only Vivienne feel safe, but me as well with the limits and consensual agreement between Vivienne and Jonah. When two people feel broken from their pasts, are working through their pain in the present you become captivated in their story. I was even more so because of the fight Vivienne has been through with her family as she holds tight to her strength and resolve. I could feel the suffering, shame, and anger that was being displayed on the pages. I felt my heart warming with the openness Vivienne and Jonah committed to in finding something more. I can’t wait to see how Vivienne and Jonah’s journey takes shape in the next installment. Rating: 5 stars
Where to start? How do I find the right words to give this story all the accolades it deserves? This is my first Lilah Pace read and to say the least Asking For It is………
A story written with such strong, boundary pushing, dark subject matter and yet written so tastefully…..it didn’t feel dark at all, even though I knew it was. I gravitate toward dark reads. The darker, the better. Asking For It is raw, edgy, captivating ~ superbly written. A story written so incredibly well, you’re drawn in from the first page and will hold you captive until the very last.
Jonah is…breathtaking, mesmerizing…he intrigues me something fierce and I want more. I want to get inside his head ~ to know what he’s thinking, feeling. I want to feel him like I feel Vivienne. Jonah gives me such a sense of comfort, serenity. I am hopelessly addicted.
Asking For It is an amazing, must read that will leave you with a book hangover that will last until Begging For It is released. Fall in love with Vivienne & Jonah and their incredible, emotionally charged journey and find your next Book Crush in Jonah. ~ 5 but deserves so many more ~ Stars!
I love picking up a new book and being blown away by the unexpected. Asking for It was exactly what I was looking for and it delivered. Refreshing and dark; Raw and captivating; the writing by author Lilah Pace was expertly crafted and put together. The story grabbed me from the first page and held me hostage until the last. These characters have depth. Jonah is a man of few words which adds to the intrigue. He makes you question every action he makes and look for the meaning behind it. To be inside his head would be fascinating! Vivienne is damaged by her past and she punishes herself for what happened to her so many years ago. Asking for It is packed with an emotional punch. It is unexpected but so appealing. Vivienne and Jonah’s journey is one that will leave you with a book crush and desperate for the next installment as their story continues. Be prepared for a dark ride and give this a try!! 5.0 Stars
About the author:
Lilah Pace is a pseudonym for a New York Times bestselling YA author. This is her first adult novel.